69. Burning Emotions
AZURA
My heart shattered watching Leo on his knees, cradling her body to his chest. Not one sound left him, but the pain and anguish
that radiated off him was something I didn‘t even need the mate bond to feel. It filled the air and I had never seen him so...
vulnerable.
The man that tried not to show emotions, who was always strong and cold, was now broken. Devastated by the loss of his loved
ones. I wished I could turn back time and stop this from happening. I wish I could take his pain and make it my own.
Why her?
I wish I had called her last night... she must have been hoping I got her message.
Jackie...
I simply knelt behind him placing my arm around his shoulders, hoping it gave him some reprieve from the pain and heartbreak
he was experiencing. His thudding heart was beating far faster than it should.
Closing my eyes, I tried to squash the guilt that was consuming me.
I brought Judah to them... I cost him his sister... and a best friend.
I made sure my walls were up, and never had I ever reinforced them as much as I did now. I didn‘t want to let him know how I
was feeling. Not wanting to add to his pain.
Biting my lip, I held him tightly from behind, squeezing my eyes shut, trying to control the burning pain that was rushing through
me.
Breathe...
I was so lost in my thoughts that I didn‘t even notice the door open behind me, until Emmet‘s angry shouts reached me.
“Don‘t touch her!”
My eyes flew open to see Eric and another guard holding him by the arms, his hands were bound, and although he couldn‘t
awaken his wolf, he was staring at Leo with such hatred that it made up for the lack of his wolf‘s rage. My own anger flashed
through me, hating how he was staring at Leo.
“Watch your tone.” I growled.
He sneered at me, as he looked me over as if he had just seen me. “Ah... the one whose fault all of this is...”
A pang of pain rushed through me. My fault...
Leo‘s eyes flashed as he looked up, brushing strands of Jackie‘s hair back. “Be happy I‘m allowing you to see her when you
don‘t even fucking deserve that.” He said, his voice dead of emotion and ice–cold. His aura suddenly grew as his eyes flashed.
“And one more word against Azura...” He left his threat hanging.
“She was my mate! Who died because of your lack of capability! You both are at fucking fault!” Emmet spat, “Let me see her!” He
struggled against the men holding him, but he was weakened. “Don‘t do this Emmet!” Eric growled; his voice strained. Leo stood
up, lifting Jackie‘s body gently and placed her on the table. Planting a kiss on her forehead. He turned to Emmet, his arm
possessively moving me behind him as if he didn‘t even want Emmet to look at me. “I am the one who is allowing you to fucking
be here, so show some respect to her and stop acting like a fucking prick.” Emmet sneered, “That‘s my mate, I may have hurt
her in my anger but I‘m not the one responsible for killing her. That‘s on you, Leo!”
Leo‘s anger filled the room like a beast ready to destroy, his blazing steel blue eyes glaring at Emmet as he advanced on him.
“For her sake, I am not going to fucking rip you apart but remember she was the only fucking thing keeping me from killing you.
With her gone... I‘m not seeing a fucking incentive.”
He stopped in front of him, his entire body on the brink of shifting, I could see his claws, and hear the deepening of his voice.
“For someone who just lost their mate, I can‘t figure out why you aren‘t running to her side to hold her.” Leo snarled venomously,
clenching his fists as he glared at the man before him. “She was ready to reject you and move on with her life, she deserved far
more... You have five minutes.”
Emmet didn‘t reply, walking towards the table. For a moment, I did see the sadness in his eyes, but I was unsure if it was him or
the bond... He had just lost his other half, but Leo had displayed far more emotions. It was clear that Emmet was not feeling the
loss as deeply as Leo
Leo‘s arm went around my shoulders, guiding me towards the door at the same time Eric and the guard moved Emmet closer to
Jackie. Eric was crying as his eyes fell on her corpse. I moved away from Leo, placing my hand on his shoulder as he looked
away, almost as if ashamed to show his tears.
Our eyes met and I gave him a sad smile.
“Come on.” Leo said quietly, holding his hand out to me. I nodded and made my way over to him when Emmet spoke, his voice
bitter and icy. “Karma will not forget this, Leo.” 4
Leo‘s frown deepened as he looked over his shoulder at Emmet. “Excuse me?”
“My mate died because of your carelessness... Karma will come to collect... I‘ll await the day I see the blood of that elite next to
you, running down.” An animalistic growl left Leo‘s lips as he turned, lunging at Emmet. “I will kill you.” He growled venomously,
slamming Emmet to the ground, and punching him across the face, making blood spray from his nose. His heart was beating,
and Emmet simply laughed. “So much for respecting Jackie.” “Leo come on.” I said going over to them, I glared down at Emmet,
as I forced Leo off him.” He isn‘t worth your time.” “Get him out of here, he doesn‘t deserve to spend time with her.” Leo hissed,
before storming
to the door, his anger swirling around him. Emmet shook his head as Eric and the other guard restrained him, pulling him to his
feet. “Go ... but this is all the elites are good for... causing death... To protect them, once more a few more of us lost our lives.
Congratulations Westwood, you‘re the reason she‘s dead.” Guilt enveloped me as Leo pulled me from the room, my head felt
like it was going to explode, and my entire body burned as if it were enveloped in fire.
I was the reason she was dead... I cast Judah‘s shadow over this pack... I am the reason she‘s gone. Emmet wasn‘t even
wrong... Leo knows it, deep down he knows it...
She died because of me because I made the mistake of getting entangled with someone as sick as him.
“Leo! Jackie‘s gone!” I looked up when Nikki came running over, tears streaming down her cheeks as she ran straight to Leo,
flinging her arms around his neck. 4
My eyes flashed as I looked at them, both devastated at the loss of someone special, but I still wanted to rip her out of his arms.
Maybe I was selfish.. The moment Leo‘s hands went to her waist, I turned away. I couldn‘t focus anymore; everything was a
mess, and the excruciating pain in my head was about to burst. Why did I even think I could make a place here? I could hear
them speaking, but I couldn‘t focus. I took a shuddering breath, and I broke into a
run.
“Azura!” Leo‘s voice came, but I felt like my entire body was fighting against me. I was the reason behind this. All I do is take the
lives of those around me. I stumbled into the fresh air, my heart pounding as I fell to my knees heaving, the blinding light around
me felt too much. Go away! Let me stay in the darkness. Wrapping my arms around myself, I dropped to my knees, feeling sick.
My frustration and anger swirled around me.
This was all his fault. I was going to kill him. Judah had fucking messed with me for far too long!
The burning felt too intense, and I was unable to stop the scream of anguish as the pain erupted, and I just wanted it all gone.
“Azura...”
I gasped when I felt Leo‘s touch, I looked up, my eyes widening as I saw him fight against the energy radiating off me. I looked
around, but all I could see was the blinding silver and gold flames surrounding me. •
Flames?
My heart pounded as my gaze dipped down, and I realised that the blinding light was
emanating from me.
A flame–like aura...
Strong arms wrapped around me, taking away the crippling edge from the pain and guilt that I was feeling
It was my fault.
‘None of this is your fault.’ Leo‘s voice came as he fought against the surging aura whipping around me as he held me. Wasn‘t
it?
I wanted to believe that, to feel like it wasn‘t my fault...
“It‘s going to be ok Baby Girl.” Leo‘s voice came as the shock of the bond made me shiver.” Breathe...” His voice sounded
strained, his heart thumping as he held me in his arms, as he knelt on the ground. 3 Placing my hand on his chest, my eyes
fluttered shut as I let it all go.
My legs gave way and Leo caught me as darkness blanketed the area around us.
“I know you‘re hurting... but if that bitch touches you even once more... I will destroy her Leo. “I hissed, trying to find an outlet for
my emotions. I glared up at him, only for my anger to dissipate when I looked into his eyes. “Understood... but if you stayed a
moment longer, you‘d have noticed that I only touched her to get her off me.” He said quietly. Gazing into his blue eyes, I wanted
to argue, but I was just being selfish. He had been through so much... he‘d shown me what I meant to him, I wasn‘t a fool... I
wanted an outlet for the turmoil inside, but he had just been through so much... and so I simply hugged him back. Tightly.
He made me feel better.
“That aura... it looked... I‘m assuming that‘s the first time it happened.”
Frowning, I looked at my hand. “Yeah it was, and I don‘t know why now...” I murmured.
“Seemed like Kiara and Liam‘s...” Leo mused quietly running his fingers through my hair. I knew Kiara‘s had awoken when she
had felt extreme emotion which triggered it... my heart thudded as I realised something similar had just happened to me. My
emotions had been out of control, it had just been building up. Looking around I realised we weren‘t alone, several people had
rushed out, probably to see what the light was.
Great.
“I don‘t get it... Where was this ability when I needed it...” I muttered, relieved as the small group dispersed.
He placed a soft kiss on my forehead. “I don‘t really know... Sometimes Selene works in
mysterious ways... Let‘s get you home.” He whispered, and I looked up at him as he stood up, carrying me. I was too exhausted
to argue, resting my head on his shoulder, I allowed him to carry me.
I felt the baby kick, and my heart leapt as I placed my hand on my stomach. It was almost as if my baby was telling me to stay
strong.
We entered the apartment, and Leo carried me to his room, placing me on the bed. For a moment I thought he was going to
leave me, but instead, he dropped onto the bed next to me and I pulled him close.
I adjusted my position, only for him to slip his arm under my head and hold me tight against his chest. We remained like that for a
while before he spoke. “Don‘t blame yourself for anything he has done. I‘m going to find him, one fucking way or another, and he
will pay. For everything.” He said quietly. Sighing, I nodded slowly. “I wish there was more I could do, I feel useless as your
mate.” I mused quietly.
I never thought I‘d be the future Luna...
He gripped the side of my neck, forcing me to look up at him. “Are you for real? Being by Kareena‘s side today was what a Luna
would do... you don‘t need to do anything different... just follow your heart, Beautiful, and you‘ll be ok.” 1 I nodded slowly, a
thought that had occurred to me earlier returning.
“The funeral organising... shall I get onto it tomorrow.” I whispered.
His heart thudded, and I reached up, running my fingers through his hair.
“Yeah, if you‘re ok to do it. Kesha will help you.” He said quietly, referring to the Beta female.
“I will.” I nodded, as our eyes met, his were still a little bloodshot, full of emotions. “I will never lose you.” He whispered, almost as
if promising himself. His gaze dipped to my lips, before he claimed them in a deep intense kiss.
‘No, you won‘t, because I‘m not going anywhere.‘ I murmured through the link, kissing him back with equal passion. We moved
back after a while, and I looked towards the window.” Shower and change, I‘ll make you a coffee and check up on Corrado. He
must be worried.”
He nodded, and for a moment, those words were on the tip of my lips. But instead, I simply smiled at him, and he pulled me
close, kissing me once more.
I left the room, switching the coffee machine on, before walking down the hall to Corrado‘s room. I peeked in, spotting Winona
sitting by the bed, but it was obvious Corrado was awake. “Mommy!” He exclaimed the moment he spotted me, pushing his
duvet off.
Winona stood up apologetically. “He has not slept.”
I shook my head slightly. “That‘s ok, you can go, get some rest too.” She nodded as I smiled gently, walking over to Corrado.
“Hey... not tired?” I asked softly. Flinging his arms around my waist, he shook his head. “What‘s happening, Mommy?” He asked,
and my heart squeezed seeing the uncertainty and fear in his eyes. Even children picked up on everything.
Shaking my head, I gave him a small smile. “It‘s just... don‘t worry, how about you sleep with Mommy and Daddy tonight?” I
asked softly, brushing his hair off his forehead. He looked up at me with hopeful eyes. 1 “Can I?” .
“Of course you can, let‘s go have some milk.” I replied, smiling warmly at him before I took his hand leading him out of his room.
In just a few short weeks I was already a Mama with my own family, and for them I will always stay strong. I‘ll make sure to be
the binding to keep everything together. 1